Song

As many of you know, music is a huge part of my life. Although I love to play it and sing it, I have not been blessed with the gift of composition. However, when I am going through a pivotal time in my life, I often find myself listening to one song over and over because something either in the lyrics or the instrumentation expresses what I'm feeling. I then come to associate the song with that time. My life definitely has its own soundtrack.

This is the song I've had on repeat...and the song I've sang at J.J.'s bedside a number of times in the last 12 days. I can't get over how well it fits, actually:

Love
I get so lost
Sometimes
Days pass
And this emptiness fills my heart
When I want to run away
I drive off
In my car
But whichever way I go
I come back
To the place you are

All my instincts
They return
And the grand facade
So soon will burn
Without a noise
Without my pride
I reach out
From the inside

In your eyes
The light
The heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway
Of a thousand churches
In your eyes
The resolution
Of all the fruitless searches
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light, the heat I see
In your eyes

Love
I don't like to see
So much pain
So much wasted
And this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired
Of working so hard
For our survival
I look to the time with you
To keep me awake and alive

Accepting all I've done and said
I want to stand and stare again
'Til there's nothing left out, oh
It remains there in your eyes
Whatever comes and goes
I will heed your silent call
I will touch this tender wall
'Til I know I'm home again

--In Your Eyes (Peter Gabriel)